#160. bible and tea

I recently read Psalm 63 with one of the girls I disciple (and an amazing friend).
"O God, you are my God; earnestly I seek you;my soul thirsts for you; my flesh faints for you,as in a dry and weary land where there is no water." (verses 1).
Here's the reality of my life in the past two weeks. I have thirsted for him and yet I have not sought him. I've shot up prayers here and there, half-heartedly (and half asleep) opened his word at 3am because I felt obligated to check "quiet time" off my daily to-do list, and fooled myself into thinking that listening to Christian music while getting ready in the morning can substitute for time spent with him. But  I know that what I'm thirsting for.. cannot be fulfilled with the way I've been living my faith. Today as I sat with my bible and tea for an extended period of time.. I was reminded of this. 
God I pray that you will continue to allow me to thirst for you and never let that thirst be quenched with anything but spending time with you in your word.